LONELINESS

"The loneliness of knowing that love will never return." Nach.

How much space your absence occupied.

I hadn't realized it until I wanted other lovers to leave their mark on my mattress.

How expensive it is to heal when there has been so much pain.

How much responsibility it is to know that I have the power to rewrite the trauma of what I experienced to repair my wound.

I am not condemned to be abandoned and abused.

An invisible thread connects me to someone in my family system, and this pattern repeats itself through generations.

I carry part of his unconscious.

I am not my ancestor and her experience.

I have come to give voice to what was silenced.

To give visibility to what was hidden.

I'm here to raise awareness.

I'm going to be the one who traded toxic relationships for a healthy one.

And it won't be with you.

Self-portrait September 2022

Embroidery June 2024

- Mouliné thread with rice stitch